todae is the dae dat im gonna cry.. maybe.. later afternoon have to take my report book!!!... im freaking damn scared!!!... i dono hus gonna follow me go take my bk.. just hope not my dad.. and plus dis year.. my dreams never come true... im so damn sad... just wish i cud turn back tym.. i miss my primary skul years very.. very much..

walau.. and dis year.. no holidae ferr me!!! dance almost every week!!! i just wanna quit dance!!! and yah.. ferr me.. its a gud news... its da only way and only chance ferr me to get rid of dance and be together wit nana!!!.. da npcc tcher is searchin 4 2 gals and 2 bois.. and i 've volunter to be one of them!!! and i hope i was accepted.. but she have to ask my dance tcher first and my parents!!!!.. i just hope dat i cud be free..

niwae.. on I&E carnival.. quite boring.. me and HER walk around da skul not doing our jobs.. haha!!.. den i oso saw da dance gals.. ok.. dey.. *toot*.. oopss!!!.. hehe.. menyempeh gue!! den guess hu finish up my cookies!! mushroom head!!.. haha!! menyebok jek.. and da cookies was made by.. me!! hehe!! i shud have pun put some poison.. ceh no lah... kiding..

den while wana buy ice ball at dono wat class.. got dis guy.. da casher.. after HER pay him den he luk at me semcm.. den suddenly smiley came den tel his tcher dono wat sumtin to do wit his fren.. dun wan da ice ball den da tcher pass to HER den HER pass to me.. but da guy was lukin at wats happening der and i was lyk paiseh so i hide.. den HER keep calling ma name.. and he was still lukin at me.. haha..

niwae.. CELAMAT AYI YAYE to my sistarsh!! im gonna miss u gals!!..

its the second dae of hari raya!!!... yay!! can eat liao!!.. but too bad.. 2dae got skul.. at first i dun wanna go but i miss my sweetie sistars.. go skul oso soo... BORED!!.. do da some thing all the tym.. play games plus make noise larh.. watsoeverlah.. den just now go hme frm skul early.. yay!!.. go hme at 1pm!!.. den reach hme onie teros PAP!!.. to my dreamland.. hehehe..
actualie ryte.. jus now got dance but me dun wanna go.. my head now never think bout dancing anymore.. not reali larh.. but if see ppl dance makes me wanna dance oso larh.. well.. its been very long tym i never go dance.. nebemind lah.. as long got fwen hu never go den im not gonna worrie.. but i thing i hab to worie is.. wat if 2moro i go to skul den ms pang search for ush how lerh?!?!... if she wanna kick us out frm dance.. nana sae dat her sir will be happy to see a new cadet for them.. well.. that would be ME!!
niwae.. got a not a veri gd news.. our whole class all get to naik for sec2NA fer next year!!.. yay!!.. but still.. i dunno wat class will i be in.. hurhur.. wish mwe luck!!! let me stay in N1!!!
okae.. enuf for storie bout todae..
yesterdae.. me go jln raye very late.. 2.30pm den we go out.. fer me.. hari raya is not gonna be dat so very,lyk happi.. coz i only got 7 cuziez onlie.. as in TOTAL!!.. and i got no nenek or datok... and to get more $$.. i hav to follow my cuzziez go raye lorh.. especialie shah's familie (my mum's sis son) every year we follow dem.. den after a week sumtin lyk dat.. we folow our neighbour go raye.. last tym wen got car.. i alwaez got $100+ coz follow muy cuzzie.. imagine if i never folow dem.. how much will i get??... den now got lori.. fer 1st dae of raye.. i onli got $44... yup.. dats little.. hmm but no matter wat.. i must atleatst get $100+ so dat i cud buy my dream

acaustic guitar!!!!!!! woohoo!!!

yes.. im back with a very bad news.. i've failed 3 subjects!!!.. after looking at the papers.. i feel like crying.. i dun think i cud survive wit dat marks.. i just dun wanna change my class.. i dun wann go normal tech N2 or N3... i dun believe dat i failed my maths.. because of that idiotic busted careless mistake!!!! if there isn't any careless mistake.. i cud get better marks den HER!!!.. my history.. i failed badly oso.. 37!!! only leh!!.. but i think i still can pass my history coz i got 68 for SA1 and 70+ for SA2.. so if total up can get 50+.. atleast pass..haiz.. reali2.. sedih.. i dunno reali how to tell my parents dis... im too scared to tell dem.. wud some1 be there for me when im down??... no one.. nobody..

how cud dis happen to me!!
i've made my mistakes!
got no way to run!
da nite goes on
as im fading away!!
im sick of this life!
i just wanna scream!!!
how cud cis happen to me..

(no one cud take away my sadness..)

hmm.. its been quite long tym writing my last post.. hari raya comin mah... so im lyk so busy helping my mum make kueh raya... hehe.. actuali mostly.. help her eat larh.. hehe.. especialy.. kueh tart!! yummie!! haha..

todae.. i got my english, science and MT marks for EOY.. ofcorse.. i never fail my english.. but science... wat do you expect?.. no one pass very well... and im worst... lower then 40... reali! i swear!.. my parents gonna kill me if they know that... for MT.. i never pass with flying colors before... and guess wat.. nana drop her marks worstly... she get 80+ for mid-yr den now.. 60+ oni lerh..wat seh cikgu... lokek markah seh!!! ARGH!! now... im hoping dat i'll pass my maths better.. hope got less careless mistake!!... i oways fail my test jus bcoz of careless mistake.. everywhere..haiyah.. den history.. i think pass ah.. i never fail for any history test paper bfore.. geography.. i dono.. i got 49.9 for mid-yr!... waisted seh... oni need 0.1 to pass!!.. homecon.. haha.. i've got fire burning in the pot before.. while doing my test samore.. but my pencil case dat i sew get to put in the exhibition tingy i think for open house!!.. sho happie!!! yay!!... haha.. literature.. hmm i dono.. well.. enough bout EOY.. im just to shock bout my marks..

hmm.. wat i did todae.. nth interesting.. boring as usual.. BORING!!... oh crick!.. fridae got dance!!.. i dun wanna dance!!.. i HATE DANCE!! as in international dance club.. and dats for sure!! i dun wanna go!!! i 've got nobodie there.. boohoo!!!!! whek!!! someone help me think a reason for me so i cud escape.. hehe..

yay!!... EOY exams are gone!!! yippie!! but nightmare is coming.. the MARKS.. scary lerh.. hope i pass everytin lah... but i dun wanna change ma class!!! boohoo!! *sobsob*

haha.. since dis is e last dae of exam.. mi and fwenz go jln2 lor.. at first wanna go see specs at JP but e shop still haven open.. 9.30am.. tell mie which shop open so early in JP??!!.. haha.. den thinking of going to da library but still not open yet.. so we suffer under da hot sun.. thirsty!! hehe.. no matter what .. i will still fast lah.. im big enuf to noe wats good and bad..
den wen go library .. full house plak.. in the end.. we end up reading the dictionaries.. at level 3.. searchin for words dat are interesting..
at 11.15am.. need to take HER nenek at dylasis.. ape lagik.. ikot arh.. den we need to buy barang at gek poh.. nenek suroh.. den blah blah blah.. we go back to e library.. dis tym.. very da damn BORING!! not shok at all!!.... sit der do nth.. talk talk talk.. chat chat chat.. kacau orang. haiz.. we were hoping to see da jurong sec guys again but no signs of them.. den last minute.. HER wanna borrow cook book.. biase larh.. tak abes abes ngan cookie dier.. haha.. abe we neva notice dat ex-nana was der wit geng.. very embaressing lerh.. after they blah redi.. we continue to search for more books... den my sis plak msg.. (mum said dun come back).. ape lagik.. kelang kabut arh.. haha.. i walk hme very fast.. so scared later kena lock outside again.. samore fasting.. haha wen reach home redi.. luk at da clock.. 2.45pm.. lyk last fri... hehe.. lucky my mum never sae anitin.. my sis just play a prank on me.. argh!!!

well.. der's a bad new actuali.. 12 sytarlurpz are no more.. we've gone to... hmm.. heaven or hell arh?? jus bcuz of J.A.I.L. evrybody quit.. bcoz of J.A.I.L.'s attitude.. nobody likes her liao.. i feel a lil'bit of pity plus lil'bit betrayed by her.. wel.. we did call her and talk to her nicely but she never listen.. den just now.. she chat on msn.. telling me dat shes sori.. if onli she told me the reason y she was acting lyk dat.. i cud atleast help her but wat she did is wat makes her prob more worst.. well.. no matter wat.. I'll be there for you.. wokies :)